I have liked you so much a few years ago. But then I realize it was wrong. We weren't meant to be together. You're just a great friend I can't live without.
Yes, I can't live without you.
You make me laugh, and I feel happy around you all the time.
I would be more than happy to get you out from your break ups because I don't want you to lose yourself. I would give you all the time I have to keep you company. I would reply to your stupid messages and reply you stupidly myself. I was not forced to do these, I loved them, because I know that you're still the old you.
But you're starting to make me craving for your company. I would be disappointed if I didn't see your text appear in my home. I would wonder where are you when its almost time for you to text me. I would laugh and smile like an idiot when you attempt to sweet-talk me. I really like the way you're addressing me (not publicizing it). My heart would thump, my body would shiver by the thought of you. I would hyperventilate when I hear people call your name. I would feel proud when I know everyone likes you. I love the fact that I have the first priority in your everything.
But I have to stop.
I don't want mistakes to be made again. I don't want you to be called a Casanova that changes his mind so easily (in means of relationship). I don't want to be a replacement of her.
It was so hard to reject you. I didn't want to, but I had to. I don't want to hurt your feelings. I don't want you to stop praising me. I don't want you to leave me like how you did whenever you had someone else. But, once again, I had to.
It's so hard to converse with you now because I can't say whatever I want any more, cause I don't want you to have a misconception of what I say.
I know I'm selfish. I want and don't want you at the same time. Don't ask me why, I'm clueless myself.
Just call me selfish.
"友人之上，恋人未满"?
