I admit, I am one very complicated human being ever.
What's this all about? A.. Person.

She was an awesome friend, I'm not doubting that. But things change and it's not as awesome anymore.
We used to share a lot to each other. And those are definitely memories I wouldn't erase from my "book of history".

Yes, obviously I'm kinda ignoring her.

I don't mean to do it purposely. It's like a complicated girl thing. I don't understand either. When I see her, I just don't feel like looking at her, need to say talking to her? No.
But when we were in a tuition class, I don't feel like ignoring her anymore. But all that's left was the awkwardness...

Everytime I ignored her, I would see me in her point of view, and I would think that I'm a really terrible friend. Yes, I know that. But I can't help it, I'm sorry.
Ugh, seriously, I hate this feeling. For more than a thousand times I've told myself to stop hurting her.. It just.. Comes back. Because its her.

I feel guilty every single time I see her.
Which doesn't really change anything.

What the hell am I doing..